Soft and steady the rain comes down. Soft grey, muted light, the scent of rain lulls my unconscious to raise. Thoughts flood my heart's open door and my mind listens to itself unwind. Randomly, steadily, with healing… A place to let go and let be… one thought after another finds its place while I tackle the unsurmountable pile of ironing ahead of me.
Thought Number One:
My father and I would talk on the phone a couple times a week. Whenever I called my father he would say, "Your voice is so clear it
sounds as if you are in the next room." He then would chuckle. I
grew to expect him to respond like that each time I called.
I hold on to that sweet memory as I miss his calls.
Thought Number Two:
I called Shelley to talk. Her voice is weaker, so her husband lends his voice as she whispers in his ear to me. Life can be cruel and beautiful we know that. But with courage she bears it with grace. Her stamina takes me back, makes me thankful and challenges me to be a better person.
If only we could change the things we want to change. In saying that I see Shelley's and her husband Eric's example, it says to me: We cannot change the inevitable but we can live it lovingly and by doing so transform the outcome.
Random feelings and thoughts Number Three:
Sacha talks about what he should do when he graduates. He bounces ideas and directions he could take. He doesn't know for sure, I reassure him that few of us did know what we were going to do after high school. He mentions he would like to go to nursing school in California, or working for the army in logistics, he rambles on…my mind's eye looks at my child talking like a young man. Bittersweet is the taste soaking my emotions.
Random Thought number Four:
The blue bathroom, the practical-functional best bathroom I have ever had is gone. The new bathroom is nearly completed. We decided against the fireplace as it took too much room. Also while looking for old shutters to make into a linen closet we found a small old linen closet. The measurement were exactly what we were hoping for. We let go of the shutter idea and bought the ready made linen closet. I need to paint it and reline the shelves. Photos will come soon.
You Guessed it Random Thought Number Five:
Earlier this week I wasn't feeling well, when I started to feel better Sacha caught my cold. He missed a few days of school. This morning French Husband woke up feeling achy, feverish, with a scratchy throat. I suppose skiing this weekend is out. I hope the love bug isn't passed back to me.
°°°°°°°° and the thoughts go on and on°°°°°°°°°°°°°°
Time alone on a rainy day with ironing stacked a mile high lends me the opportunity to have random thoughts. Where do you unwind? Please do make me jealous and say with a glass of red wine in front of the fire.
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