by Corey Amaro
As I put the pedal to the metal going over the hill to take Sacha to his BMX trials, I thought to myself, if I had to use one word to describe myself it would be spontaneous.
My thoughts were racing, as I tried to put in order the things I had to do today. Being a taxi driver was not one of them. Yet there I was driving Sacha who had misplaced the thought of telling me his plans. Sacha and I are alike, we live by the seat of our pants, though Sacha is not as seasoned as I am… He does not know that to live by the seat of your pants you need to know the cards in your hand, and who holds the trump card. In this case I was the either going to be the source of his frustration, and a good lesson learned, or spontaneous, with a trick up her sleeve.
Sacha woke me up saying, "Are you ready?"
I barely opened my eyes, "What time, where… when?"
Skillfully, like a master card-player he put his cards down one by one. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and thought- This is motherhood, this is the result of my DNA going one way, this is my teenage boy who has not yet grasped the idea of being organized. I listened, reined in my desire to give a frustrated lecture and instead bartered, "Okay, if you clean your room, and sweep the courtyard I'll take you, you gotta work fast, we need to leave in twenty-five minutes and your room makes a bombed area look good."
As I raced over the mountain, I thought to myself… I like being spontaneous, but only when everyone around me is a bit more organized than myself. I told Sacha that the essence to being yourself, is to put your best card forward and to follow it with a strong lead. Being spontaneous is a wonderfully quality as long as you know the boundaries, or if you have a mother who can relate.
I put the things I had to do in perspective, in order of importance. Taking Sacha to his activity was important to me, he is a good boy, and I have to honor that goodness, even if he is unorganized. I am spontaneous which often leads me in too many directions and scattered. Though at the same time it allows me to reshuffle my cards, finding a new game in the deal of my daily life.
What is one word that describes you best?
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