Stories Collected While Living in France

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Tomorrow will be a beautiful Day

Rose-water

Tomorrow would be my Father's 83rd birthday. The flood gate opens, though the memories rushing through are not of the last days of his life. Those last months of sadness, those haunting images, the raw feelings of grief have less power over me. Instead the healing water of time has rushed by (Time is an odd measurement isn't it? Fast – slow it counts differently depending on every second we are living it doesn't it?) carrying me to a new ground where signs of spring are evident… Life continues to continue, winter's barren branches will bear fruit.

Two years ago many of you told me that this would happen, that I would feel as if I was left standing at that marked moment and yet I would move forth.

Healing water

soaked through me

cleansed the sorrow

renewed my joy.

Tomorrow will be a joyful day.

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40 responses to “Tomorrow will be a beautiful Day”

  1. Julienne

    But you do miss them so…….

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  2. Ellen Cassilly

    All of this is true but then you are excited about something and want to share it with him – and you miss him, It is nine years now for my father.
    One plus is that I am closer than ever with my mother. Love and hugs, E

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  3. Jeanette M.

    continued healing thoughts for you Corey.

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  4. Sharon

    Your closing words are like a flower that grew upward in a patch of devastated soil. Praises are its petals and beauty is its offering. Thank you for speaking them.

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  5. Denise Moulun-Pasek

    My Mom passed away over four years ago and I must say, on the anniversary of her death, I feel a peaceful contentment that I had such an authentic relationship with her.

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  6. Christine Wittmann

    My heart goes out to you Corey. My dad would’ve been 87 this May 9th. I brought up his service in WWII at a recent town hall meeting, how proud I was he fought at the Battle of the Bulge, that he was in France, England and Germany fighting for freedom. He died in 1977, only 53 years old. Not a day goes by that I don’t think of him still. All I can tell you is that our loved ones do live on in our hearts and their spirits are forever with us until we meet them again, and I believe with all my heart that we will.
    Chris

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  7. Liam’s Grandma

    God bless, Corey. I lost my mom four years ago and it still stings. I often think, “I have to call mom and tell her about this or that…” and I remember I can’t pick up the phone and hear her voice.
    My dad was recently diagnosed with Parkinson’s. He turned 80 in January. His wife has cancer. It’s going to be another rough road ahead. But so worth helping my dad and his wife through their journey. Love does wonderful things.

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  8. Leslie Garcia

    Dear Corey,
    You couldn’t have put it better! I will be thinking of you and your Father and your Mother and family most especially on April 11, 2010. Sending Love and good wishes always! I am sure that your Dad will let you know in a very special way…that he is listening.
    Leslie

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  9. Cheryl ~ Casual Cottage Chic

    My mother died of breast cancer in the summer of 2007, and I still find myself wanting to call her on the phone to tell her of some wonderful antique find. Her love of French and English antiques was a gift she gave to me; something we will always share. Looking back is good for the soul; looking forward is good for the heart.

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  10. Julie Ann Evins

    Im like Ellen in reverse. The light from the loss of mummy is I have a closeness with my father which may never have been. That said I miss her so and her joy in little Grace would have been absolutely unbridled. It is a cruel twist that Grace came to us too late to know the most wonderful nanna a girl could dream of. I am glad the pain has receded sufficiently for you to enjoy happy memories of your dad on his birthday. God bless Coco, jx

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  11. Beachy

    Your father’s love continues on this earth through you, Corey. xo

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  12. Merisi

    I am so happy that you have reached that haven, that state of grace,
    where the pain of missing someone becomes bearable and remembering a loved one gives you strength and joy to go forward and cease the day: After all, we have the gift of being able to still enjoy this life on earth, to go on living also for those who went before us to that blessed land we all hope to reach one day.

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  13. Marilyn

    Joy comes in the morning! I am so happy for you and healing. We always miss those that have gone before us, but we can so enjoy the sweet memories.

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  14. cynthia Wolff @Beatenheart

    I still miss my papa something terrible… I too, think of calling him at times and then and remembering he is no longer here to talk to…

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  15. Shelley Noble

    Thank God.

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  16. Marie-Noëlle

    He will like your being joyful tomorrow !
    xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  17. Cindy

    It will be a wonderful day, as we have those we love with us at all times. It hurts, however, and time has not taken that away from me.

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  18. naomi

    I always read but haven’t commented in quite a while . . . I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Happy for you to be where you are in your grief. I am 38 years old and blessed to see my daddy nearly every day. The 8th would have been HIS daddy’s 88th birthday – he died this past year. My daddy was musing over the fact that, if he lived to be as old as Paw Paw, he would live 22 more years . . . which in a way sounds like a long time. And yet, it would never be enough. My time with him is a gift I do not take for granted, and it is a great joy to me that my children get to know him and love him as I do. Perhaps even better for them because he is now retired and they are one of his chief occupations! We are blessed.
    Happy day to you tomorrow.

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  19. Star

    I’m glad that time has softened the harsher times of two years ago and allowed the happiness of all the years before to filter back to the top.

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  20. Susana Stevens

    So glad you’re at a point today, that two years ago, you never believed would be possible. Tomorrow is a special day!

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  21. jend’isère

    Their American grandfather holds a special place to your children,lucky to be old enough to have eternal memories. Special thoughts to all tomorrow.

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  22. Jeanne

    Big hugs and much love

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  23. Victoria

    I was thinking about time today too. It was regarding style and time, and the amount of life put into them. I commented on it at my daughter’s blog: http://rachelclairecollection.blogspot.com/2010/03/where-has-all-style-gone.html

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  24. Judi

    And so it is, Corey. Ten years later and the ache is still there for my dad. But the joy of having had him in my life is so much more huge. Be peaceful, my friend.

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  25. Miss Robyn

    xoxo

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  26. Alena

    Thinking of you on this day, sending love, many hugs and healing thoughts.
    Have beautiful day Corey.

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  27. Through the Milkhouse Door

    I was one lucky little girl, playing at the Amaro house after school. Sweet pain of nostalgia.
    Much love to you and your family!
    Laurie
    SF

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  28. Gina

    Thinking of you Corey…

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  29. Sandy

    Corey,
    We walked that path together, you with your father and me with my grandmother, and I remember well your pain, grief, and sorrow, I felt it too. Your father is smiling at you and your resilient spirit of being able to carry on with joy, blessing, and determination to live and love life to its , fullest. Happy Birthday to you, Corey, this is a day you will forever celebrate differently and in doing so, celebrate yourself as the beautiful daughter that you were and are.

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  30. Cheryl Curtis

    I know how you feel, my dad died five years ago and I still miss him. He would have been 83 years today, April 10th. I just feel blessed to have had him in my life. Hugs to you. Cheryl

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  31. gracia

    cleansed the sorrow
    renewed my joy.
    Tomorrow will be a joyful day.
    …words to live by.
    Sending hugs, g

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  32. myfrenchawakening

    Hello Corey,
    My own father died a long while ago and he would have been 85 this year. On your fathers birthday I’ll be thinking of you….Missing him is only natural so do it, but for him “ride the Harley wild today” (as you once said yourself a long time ago) and take him with you ALL day.
    Kind regards, Therese

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  33. pauline

    so glad you are reaching that point TICA. Someday you will celebrate your dad’s birthday with cake and smiles and only joyful memories.

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  34. Meg Mitchell

    I have been reading your blog for quite some time but I’ve never left a comment. You put so much heart into your blog every day and it was time for me to let you know how much I enjoy Tongue in Cheek. Every morning, yours is the first blog I read. It is beautifully written and your photographs are lovely.
    Meg

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  35. Maura (in Kansas)

    Hello Corey, time certainly does heal our sadness. For a while it seems as though you will never be happy again but it happens as you’ve discovered. Finally you can think about those precious times spent with your father and it doesn’t hurt so bad anymore…you can smile and perhaps laugh and maybe shed a tear…but you can be happy for those good times. I hope you have a wonderful day. Best wishes….Maura

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  36. Michelle M in KY

    My dear Corey…
    My thoughts are with you today and hope that you spent the day doing something that pleases you & brings you joy (like brocanting).
    If you feel like me…time does march on, but somehow, you are left with the fact that you never really know how to function properly in the world without your Father. For me, there is an emptiness and a longing, even still. I function, and go about the day to day life, but there’s always a piece of me missing. Thinking of you in hopes that your day was good my friend!

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  37. Genevieve

    Divine Mercy Sunday
    🙂

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  38. AmyKortuem

    Every year on my grandmother’s birthday, I buy myself a pair of earrings. She loved jewelry and I always bought her earrings for her birthday. During those first years after her death, remembering her with something pretty and joyful helped to erase the horror of her last days. Now, when I put on my new earrings every year, I only feel the touch of her hand and her warmth and her love.

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  39. Jill Riter

    What a very beautiful post.

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