Tough Choice when I Thought it Would be Easy.

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Yesterday, was going to be a busy day, so I thought I'd post a photo on my blog and have you my readers tell me a story. For me that is the easiest post ever. And if you must know, when a day is going to be extra busy I usually add that sort of post to my blog… a guessing game, a give away, a gift for a story or thought. Yesterday, like I said was going to be that kind of day.

 

The thing is I always, and I mean always, forget that the day after such a post is going to be a tough choice day. I day where I read the lovely responses and hear myself saying, "Gee, why did I do this! Dang this is no sweet potato. I can't decide. Gee Ding Dong why do you do this. Who are you gonna pick when all the responses are soooooooooo tender, genuine and good?"

This morning I read the responses wishing I wasn't the one who had to pick. Even picking a few for you to decide wasn't easy. Do you ever get yourself in this sort of pickle? Where you do one thing thinking it will be easier, only to find out you made it more difficult?

Yes, I know picking a few comments is not as tough as a choice as deciding on something critical, or having something devastating happening. I am not a Drama Queen, nor do I exaggerate…. but picking a few comments is not a piece of cake when the whole apple pie is tasty.

Clasp-key Most of yesterday's responses spoke about going back to a moment in childhood or youth. Beautiful stories, about innocence, saying good bye, holding on to someone they loved for one last time. I had tears in my eyes, my emotions were stirred and with a few made me laughed out loud. But mainly the responses talked about moments of love, and how over time that moment of love became a cornerstone in their being. One that they leaned on, and went back to as they gathered wisdom and age.

Lock-and-key

Listed below are the five responses that I selected from the responses to yesterday's post. Please read them, then selected one that you think deserves the old Fatima's hand door knocker. I will then send the winner the old Fatima's hand door knocker and the other winners an old key.

Thank you for your responses yesterday, everyday actually. They were amazingly beautiful, giving this blog such wonderful depth, I love reading what you have to say, and I know I am not the only one.

By the way I have enabled the comment section of my blog to be interactive. Below each comment you will see a button that says, "Reply", if you click on it you can reply directly to the commenter and they can reply directly to you.

 

 

Fatima hand knocker red

Please select one from the list, or one that you like best from the list in yesterday's comments. You all deserve to win!! (And by the way Happy Birthday Susan!)

 

 

1)

Alan said…

In 1975 I was twenty five years old. I could read a newspaper from a hundred yards away. I smoked cigarettes, and never coughed. The idea that it was unhealthy never crossed my mind. I could still run back then without my knees screaming in pain, and my feet could carry me dozens of miles without barking. I had sex, a lot. My dad was still alive, I had long hair, and driving a car was fun. The one thing I'd love to re-enter my life is youth. Of course the more I think about it, I made poor decisions back then. I quit my job and moved to California, where I spent every dime I had. I fell in love with the wrong people. I smoked too much pot. I drank too much. Oh, and I had sex, a lot.

 

2)

A glorious day in April one year in Rome, early morning, on my way to school, walking through Villa Borghese, smelling and hearing spring all around me, and there it was, a large, pristine white magnolia blossom, fallen from the tree. I'd like to relive that moment, when I bent down to pick it up.

 

3)

Star said…

I'd like to bring back swinging and singing into my life. When I was a child, we had a swing set in our yard (we lived on a small acreage). During the warmer months, I used to love to go out after supper and swing until the dews came as the sun set and it became too cool to be out. While I was swinging, I would sing…just about anything. There were songs that my mother taught me (songs that were popular when she was growing up) that we used to sing as we did the dishes after meals. There were folk songs. I even sang commercial jingles from the radio or television. It seemed like I was in my own little world out there, singing and swinging away, and I felt so relaxed and ready for bed when I came indoors at nightfall.

When my father was progressing through the stages of Alzheimer, my mother shared with me that my father sometimes would sit on the steps between the kitchen and the back door and listen to my singing through the screen door. I'd never known until then.

4)

Deb in IN said…

This triggered an old memory and prompts an answer that surprises even me. I would like to walk into a Brocante today and find a metal wind up toy of Dino (from the Flintstones) of my youth.I was given the toy the day my mom entered the hospital for an extended stay. I found such comfort lying on the floor winding it up and watching it go in circles over and over and over. The loud mechanical noise drowning out the medical terms I couldn't understand and the words I didn't want to hear.In the car and in my bed I still wound it, holding it with wheels spinning freely so that sound would keep my focus–be my barrier. I miss the ability to self-sufficiently and single-mindedly center on something that blocks the confusion and turmoil of life's difficulties.In writing this now I guess I realize what I miss isn't the toy as much as the simplicity of childhood.But, I'd still take the toy as tribute to that time.

 

5)

Jeanne said…

I used to sing out loud just because until one day in the 4th grade I overheard some other kids taking about my singing and they weren't very flattering. It broke my heart and my spirit for awhile. I continued to sing in groups, but I still am self-conscious even singing in the shower. I would love to feel the freedom that I felt as a child before that day.



Comments

85 responses to “Tough Choice when I Thought it Would be Easy.”

  1. I have just finished posting MY comment on yesterday’s blog – I am soooooo late….. If ever you post an upload for the slowest commentator, think of me…. lol
    I just KNEW it had to be Alan; it’s so against the grain of all the other comments, so funny, so ‘manly’, no time wasted with sweet thoughts, just going straight for the things that were important…. so funny!
    And as I said in my comment; all those are wonderful in some way and I am glad it wasn’t ME who had to choose!
    Have a QUIET(er) day…. 🙂

  2. I’de like Jeanne to know she can sing just for herself in the shower, in the car, around the table with family or on the subway…for the pure joy of it…and I hope this knowledge banishes her childhood embarassment.
    If winning this would make her want to sing, I choose her story.

  3. I could never choose, all the stories touch me, so I am of no help. I look forward to seeing who will hold the Lady’s hand.

  4. Barbara Kelley

    I was fixing dinner last night when suddenly there was a loud banging sound. I knew immediately what it was – the front door. I went to the door and at first I didn’t see anyone. But there on the front step was a letter. I recognized the handwriting. It was from my mother. Mother has been dead for ten years now and I talk to her all the time, but this is the first letter she has written. I picked up the letter and went across the street to the park to read it. Sitting on a bench, tears came to my eyes. It’s not every day that you get a letter from your dead mother. Since I share her with two sisters, I know I can’t have her full attention all the time. My sisters and I are very sharing though and when Nancy needed mother’s full attention to find a buyer for her house, Rita and I backed off. Then my brother in law needed knee surgery and Nancy gave her back to Rita. My big turn came when Bob and I tried to buy an apartment which had been in bank default. Would we get it? I put my mother on the case and of course we signed for the apartment a few days later.
    I opened the letter.
    Dear Barbara,
    Don’t worry about things so much. You know that I will help you whenever I can, but if things go wrong, just remain calm. Everything will be all right. I’m here with you always. And I love you very much. Love, Mother.
    When I went back into the house, I caressed the door knocker. That’s the thing about French door knockers. They become the person you need most. Thank you Mother. Knock again any time.
    Barbara Kelley
    Rueil Malmaison, France

  5. I relate most to Deb in IN. I believe we all want to return to the simplicity of childhood at one moment or another. It’s those comforting thoughts and memories that help us get through the days sometimes.

  6. All the stories are beautiful in their own way. I vote for Star because singing and swinging epitomize childhood to me.

  7. A tough choice indeed – all are well written, heartfelt and evocative. My vote goes to Alan, though, for making us smile alongside the pathos.

  8. Without hesitation, Alan, because…me too !!!!

  9. All of yesterday’s entries proved wonderful. I hope all entrants realize that their posts touched us and helped us remember what’s important in life. I vacillated between two of the five you listed, but in the end I vote for Star.

  10. Enjoyed rereading these. My vote swings to Alan.

  11. I vote for Jeanne because the reality of a child’s innocence shattered is such a devastation.
    jackie
    bliss farm antiques

  12. Loved them, esp Alan, but Star!… outshines the others for me, as it is a story of what another feels, the love they feel, the meaning in their lives that is only revealed to us sometimes. Ultimately a story of how the love we give – may be worth more to us in the end then what we receive. (Or so the wise say) Star showed me. x

  13. Jacqueline

    My vote is for Alan. We can ALL relate with our own fast ride through our youth. Too bad it’s a one way street.

  14. This is hard! All are so good, but my eyes welled up when I read about Star’s singing and swinging and her father secretly listening so I’ll use my tears as a barometer for the winner.

  15. Marie-Noëlle

    Deb or Merisi?
    Very difficult !!
    – Deb, because I understand her being appealed by the toy in such circumstances… I wish I had a toy winding when I heard the doctors tell my family my mother would be lost within a few months…
    – Merisi, because the poetry of her answer sums up all others’ stories… The kind of allegory that we can find in Saint-Exupéry’s “The Little Prince”. Thank you, Merisi !
    So… I chose Merisi because her story is centralizing all.

  16. Oh I would haveto say Alan so poignant and true…loved reading them all
    Pinkie

  17. Star. Her story was SO easy for me to relate to. I did the same thing, my song was Drip Drip Drop Little April Showers.

  18. Sandra in Edmonds

    The door knocker, hands down, to Star for singing and swinging, with the tender thoughts that her parents hearts were warmed by her evening enjoyment. Thanks for letting is relive our own pasts as we read the posts.

  19. I think I have to vote for Deb. Her story addresses what she would like to return as an tangible object and also the intangible feeling we all miss.

  20. Loved Star’s story. My vote is for her.

  21. Alan – your story hits home! We must be close to being the same age. HA!

  22. That was beautiful!

  23. They all deserve a prize. If I found a wind up Dino toy, it would immediately be mailed to Deb. The sound memories of our childhoods. I remember waking up at paternal Aunty and Uncle’s vacation cabin. Grandma was the first one up. She started the day loading the wood stove. Light the wood, start the coffee. Grandma very quietly humming a Norwegian folk song. Since the cabin was purchased from my maternal grandparents, Grandma was using the same wood stove as my other grandmother had. I was nine years old and felt totally surrounded by love.

  24. I vote for Star!

  25. Brenda L from TN

    I pick Star’s story…I used to do the same thing…

  26. ohhhh,Corey—-no wonder you couldn’t choose! They are all wonderful. I choose Star……..I will carry the vision of her father hiding and listening……I wish I could hear her sing as well.
    missy from the bayou

  27. I vote for Alan.

  28. Thank you Karen. Your response brought tears to my eyes. And don’t worry about me. I do sing but not with the abandon of the child that I was.

  29. Oh dear, TOUGH choice!! Well if we’re going by tears then I choose Deb in IN. I actually would love for her to write an article for my magazine!!
    All of these were wonderful – I knew I had to visit Alan’s blog and get to know him because he sounds very entertaining and funny!
    Star’s memory made me well up with happy tears, knowing that there were likely many times my parents silently watched and admire me doing something, as I do with Finn.
    Merisi made me try to recollect my own perfect moment and I have come up with a few.
    And I’d like Jeanne to sing a song for me.
    Thank you for this, Corey!
    Tamara

  30. Dear Corey, Thank you for picking me. I would love the door knocker, but I would also be delighted with a key. there are so many things you can do with key. Jeanne

  31. Man, oh, man…what do you get yourself into Corey? Great thoughts shared….And pressed to pick, I choose Star…the bittersweetness of those that look in on us and we don’t know it. Swinging and singing for the pure joy of it is certainly a precious time. Merisi’s moment caught me too, because my mind immediately painted that moment in a picture, and though I have never been to Rome, I pictured it.

  32. I have to pick #3. I remember days and evenings like that. I hope my dad was listening, too.

  33. I vote for Star. That story reminds me so much of the times when I was a child and would sing and swing. Now I wonder if my singing touched anyone’s heart.

  34. #3. While all the memories & wishes were wonderful #3’s seems most likely to happen. Whilst one cannot go back in time, perhaps Fatima’s knock will be a tangible reminder to sing… and to find a park with swing if there is not space to build one in the garden. j

  35. #3…..That one touched my heart and reminded me of what my Mother told me after my Father passed away.

  36. Karen in Northern Wisconsin

    Thses are all so wonderful…no idea who should win…but…Barbara’s story of her Mother’s postal visit really stirred up my emotions…Please continue writing, Barbara…you have a gift.

  37. Evelyn Hill

    Corey, These are all such wonderful stories! My vote for Fatima’s door knocker would have to go to Star, but I am awed by all the responses. Alan’s made me smile, because although we are about the same age, I lived in the slow lane during those wild and crazy times, looking on from the outside. Merisi’s beautiful entry was a gift of hope on this frigid, snowy day in the Midwest. Star and Jeanne brought back precious memories of childhood; I, too, loved to sing my heart out “just because.” May we always do so!! And Deb’s beautiful story reminded me that, like her, I often needed something to cling to when childhood innocence crossed paths with harsh reality. Thanks to each of them for sharing!
    Evelyn

  38. I too loved what Barbara wrote. And yes Barbara keep writing!

  39. Victoria Ramos

    I say Alan……ah, youth. Although I never smoked, most of the other stuff I can relate to. I sometimes dream about my beautiful long red hair, great body, crazy times, sleeping in till 12 or staying out till 4am, no aches and pains, too many boy friends to count, boundless energy, mother still here….those where the days!

  40. #3 – Star. I too used to swing and sing. And yes, everything, especially those commercial jingles! My mother contracted Alzheimer’s, so I really do know what finding out about your dad listening meant to you. Thank you for this, it brought back something precious for me.
    Erin in Morro Bay

  41. Star’s (#3) memory is my choice.

  42. Tough decision, Corey. I identified with all of them (wink,wink Allan and Jeanne-I found a park with swings and end my walk everyday swing to the stars). The one that brought tears to my eyes yesterday and again today was Deb’s. I wish I had a Dino wind up toy to send to her. Rest and relax, Corey!

  43. Marie-Noëlle

    As many of your readers can’t choose, you could send one finger of Fatma’s hand to each of the nominees…
    5 names… 5 fingers… just fine !!!
    😉

  44. Sue from Seattle

    alan!!

  45. My vote goes to Star. I am so glad your father was listening…

  46. Corey,
    I choose Star, although Alan’s really made me laugh! They are all great – tough choice.

  47. Matchmaker Corey..
    You need to introduce Alan to Franca Bollo..
    My vote is for Alan.

  48. I vote for Alan, lost youth, time, opportunity.

  49. Deb from IN for sure. Touching and honest, I loved her for sharing what is obviously a very personal moment.

  50. #1 Alan of course. I hear ya man ;o)

  51. Hella Auntie,
    I choose #2: My world.
    I would have wanted to live this moment….

  52. Star is the choice for me, no doubt about it.

  53. I vote for #2 Alan. He reminds me of misspent youth and how choices made me who I am today. I would not trade a moment

  54. Indeed this is a difficult decision, but Star’s beautiful story is my first choice, followed by Alan.

  55. my vote is for Star…

  56. You wrote, “… nor do I exaggerate…”
    You meant that tongue-in-cheek. Right?
    Right?
    And I’ll go with Jeanne. Sad day when a child’s spirit get squashed.

  57. I vote for Alan, because we all mourn our lost youth. No one wants to be the oldster we once mocked and now we are!!

  58. Thanks, LaurieSF, but Mr Bollo wouldn’t like that one bit. Though, I know he shares Alan’s longing for “when the drugs were never so cheap, the sex was never so free and the music never so good.” I’m paraphrasing someone and badly but that’s how some label the late ’60s-early ’70s. I was a mere child …
    Maybe I’ll run across you running one of these days.

  59. mknowles591@hotmail.com

    Loved Alans reminded me of when I was young.

  60. Star gets my vote.

  61. Star for me…
    They were all wonderful.

  62. I vote for Merisi. I love the simplicity of this story and can see the magnolia.

  63. Jonathan from Napa, CA

    I vote for Star who just being her free self, and without knowing it, was giving joy to her father and any others who happened to hear her.

  64. I vote for Star #3. Finding out how much you had been loved in a way you did not know must be the most fantastic thing this side of heaven.
    Lorretta from NH

  65. I vote for Alan #1. I remember 1975 and it was similar to Alan’s memory. Young and foolish but boy, was it ever fun at the time! I’ve grown up and become a responsible adult. But that doesn’t mean I can’t travel back in my memory from time to time. Thanks for the reminder!

  66. I vote for Star, but Alan puts it so bluntly you have gotta laugh.

  67. Nice perspective Dr. Boyd!
    Mary from St. Helena

  68. #3 Definitely. I am the mother of a child with a song in her heart. I’ve held the phone up to the door of the bathroom so my mother could hear her practicing. I’ve cried like a baby during her last high school performance. And now that my daughter is in college, it is a beautiful treat when she comes in for the weekend and fills our home with song!
    I’ve also always sung stupid little songs to my kiddos. Just made up words about anything. It could just be their name sung in different silly ways or making up different words to “You Are My Sunshine.” They now roll their eyes at me when I do this as my youngest is 14, but I know that when I am gone those silly songs will be something they’ll miss dearly.

  69. I choose Jeanne.
    I wished the spirits were back and she feels free again.

  70. I loved Deb’s memory of her wind up Dino. It caused me to remember how my {almost lifeize} walking Suzie doll kept me company, comforted me, and was my confident when I was six years old and had to spend a year in and out of the hospital with sick kidneys. She even came with me when I had surgery to remove it.
    I loved this question that you put to us yesterday, Corey. I loved reading all of the responses and I loved reliving all of the memories that came flooding back to me. It seems we all want to recapture a feeling of security and trust; to know everything is going to be all right.

  71. I vote for #3 Star~beautiful story!

  72. Loved all the stories, but I chose Jeanne this time.

  73. Allan, As a child of the late 60’s I can relate.,On somoe things….I am sure Alan had more fun than I.

  74. I loved all the stories, but Star’s hit a cord with me. It seems like something I would enjoy doing and the last part about her dad listening to her singing was so beautiful.
    ~elaine~

  75. Star …I lost my Mom to Alzheimer’s last May 4….that was a special moment for you all….beautiful
    Corey I can see where you have a difficult time choosing :o)
    Alan…..how true….youth….if only we knew then what we know now :o)

  76. Deb from Indiana. I can hear the sound of the wind-up Dino from her words. That it gave her comfort and the chance to escape the reality around her is sweet beyond compare.
    I can relate to Jeanne’s story. It is why I do not sing to anyone but myself. And to my little granddaughter because she cannot tell me to stop. 😉

  77. Barbara, I haven’t seen that before but it made me blind with tears while reading… and I am smiling too because it is SO beautiful!
    Love, and may your mum knock again…. whenever you need it!
    knock, knock, knock…. 🙂

  78. #3 Star! Where are my tissues. I pick her to have the door knocker! ;o)

  79. Deb’s bittersweet story.

  80. Star…what a sweet memory of her father…
    heartbreaking….

  81. they were all wonderful but I pick Star.

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