Photo by my son Sacha.
The land surrounds me,
There is nothing but the dirt under my feet,
the sky over head
and my bare body.
Alone.
I imagine what that would be like?
Back in the beginning whenever that was,
back when sparks flew and light spoke in the darkness,
Far behind my present life yet still living within me.
Life was then, now and tomorrow.
Weren't we all the same in that moment of deep reality, in that moment less than a nanosecond?
Aren't we still the same at the root buried under time?
I wonder at the magnitude, the enormous meaning of having it all and having nothing.
This seriousness, this sensitivity, this unexplainable wonder stands in front of me daily. I am not standing alone on barren land with nothing to hold on to, nor do I have empty hands, yet many have this reality.
Life is unfair.
And that is hard to accept.
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A glimpse back at our year in 2016. As is every year much has happened, a mixture of happiness and sadness, love and fear, joy and trouble, leaps and falls, peace and war: A time for everything under heaven even if I would not have it so. Our world turns with all of us in it together, a speck in a massive universe, a speck that is utterly, fantastically, beautifully connected, ever so precious and strong. We have seen or heard of atrocities so grand that it is beyond comprehension. Warfare and prejudices that strike to the core of humanity leaving me stunned, bitter, angry and most of all seemingly helpless when I long not to be. Throughout this year I have remained silent about these events on my blog, leaving the news media to investigate and report it, letting my blog be simply a blog about my life in France and hopefully uplifting to others. Many times I have wanted to "say" something, "do" something, change directions but in the end I have decided against doing so. I hope that you know that I am not blind, nor accepting of the hatred and brutality that is happening in Syria and beyond. That I long to change the course of destruction… My challenge is to be as loving and giving as I can, and by doing so encourage others to do the same. No it is not enough, but it is what I can challenge myself to do every day.
Love one another.
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