Out of sorts

to be expected

one moment at a time and sometimes a nanosecond at a time.

life is constantly changing 

that big sun comes up and we barely notice it.

the moon waxing and waning

while I go about breathing in the seasons

but then one day life makes a sudden shift and everything that seemed unnoticeable in noticed and in that dark change the one that wrecks into one's well being …

 

“Let everything happen to you
Beauty and terror
Just keep going
No feeling is final”

Rilke

beauty and terror

both hand in hand, 

Beauty because life the one I held so dear became crystal clear and I knew love and joy and peace and what to be thankful for, everything!

and terror because I could lose it.

A sudden shift

less than a blink of an eye

I knew, but knowing an experiencing it are never the same.