No Hard Feelings
Avett Brothers
I have listened to this song nearly every day since I heard about my brother's cancer
the words often make me cry
tears of so many reasons-
so truly true of grief and letting go and letting be and being ready.
The song asks, "Will I be ready?"
My brother was due to his circumstance.
He gave his hope and chance for a miracle healing, and when it wasn't to be
he prepared himself and his family
as best as one can.
His last words to me were,
"… be with Gabriel, he needs you, take care of him."
He knew I babysit Gabriel a few days a week and he said,.." you do not need to come home…
you were here when we needed you most, you kept mom safe and I didn't need to worry
because I knew you were there."
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And it finally lets me free
Will I be ready?
And my lips give their last kiss goodbye?
Will my hands be steady when I lay down my fears, my hopes, and my doubts?
The rings on my fingers, and the keys to my house
With no hard feelings?
And the line in my chest won't be kept held at bay any longer
When the jealousy fades away
And it's ash and dust for casual lust
And it's just hallelujah
Love in the songs they sing in the church
And no hard feelings
Kept me afraid and cold
With so much to have and hold
Mmm, hmm
And it finally lets me free
Where will I go?
Will the trade winds take me south through Georgia grain?
Or tropical rain?
Or snow from the heavens?
Or run into a savior true?
And shake hands laughing
And walk through the night, straight to the light
Holding the love I've known in my life
And no hard feelings
Kept me afraid and cold
With so much to have and hold
I'm finally learning why
It matters for me and you
To say it and mean it too
For life and its lovely nest
And all of its ugliness
Good as it's been to me
I have no enemies
I'll have no enemies
I have no enemies
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