Goodbye Chris

cousins,

My cousin Chris Souza, ten years ago.

In Northern California, my extended family, 60 first Cousins, 22 Aunts and Uncles, 112 second cousins, and too many to count third cousins, formed a foundation of love, faith, and togetherness. We are more than just relatives; we are a close-knit family, a community, and a source of unwavering support for one another. Growing up was an extraordinary experience, a daily affirmation that I was never alone.

Our lives were woven with joy, sorrow, and celebration threads of many hues, and every month seemed to bring a new chapter of our family story, whether it was the union of a wedding, the solemnity of a funeral, or the promise of a new life at a baby shower. We took part in each other's happiness and well-being.

 We went to school together, shared in the laughter and excitement of birthday parties, marked the seasons holiday gatherings, and found solace and purpose in our shared church activities. Even when we were physically apart, our connection remained unbreakable. We would chat on the phone, write heartfelt cards, and pray for each other's welfare.

Our parents' deep love and closeness were at the core of our family. They modeled the importance of nurturing these bonds, passing them down by examples of love, respect, and unity.

As I left home and moved to France, I realized what I had grown up with was a rare gift. I understood that the joy we shared would also be the source of strength during times of sadness; I understood that love would be measured by sorrow in saying goodbye many times.

In recent years, we have faced heartache and loss. We have bid farewell to family members, each one leaving a void in our hearts. But even in the face of these painful losses, our family bond has shone brightly. In these times, the goodness of our love truly reveals itself. We mourn together, support each other, and remember the beauty of the lives that touched ours.

A few days ago, my cousin Chris died from a sudden and tragic anaphylactic shock. In the midst of grief, our family rallied together again, a testament to our unwavering bond. I remember Chris for the love and faith he showed us and for reaching out to all of us in our time of need. He wasn't afraid to show his heart; he would visit any of us when we weren't well or in need. You might say he wore his heart on his sleeve, but I would say he carried it in his bare hands. When we were in high school together, he often took me home by the way of Foster Freeze for a chocolate malt and French fries. My mouth waters just thinking about it, but not as much as my sorrow for his sudden death.

Our family is a testament to the faith of love,

 it is a wellspring of

Compassion and hope that lights our way.



Comments

23 responses to “Goodbye Chris”

  1. Ed Schnurbusch

    I was so saddened to hear about Chris passing. He and I were classmates from 1st grade until we graduated high school. He and I shared a love for motorcycles. I will not forget his sense of humor. He was a huge force behind the church and the Portuguese community and his loss will be felt by so many people. My heart goes out you and your whole family.

  2. I am so sorry for your loss.

  3. I am so sorry to read about your loss.
    My prayers and sympathy for you all
    Do not search for me in places or in a time where I once was
    Search for me in the places where I am not in the stars, in the moon, in songs, in your soul
    For inside you is where I still breathe
    Where I still live
    Johhy Nguyen

  4. Diane Belforte Lewis

    Thank you for this really cute picture of you and cousin Chris. We’re so blessed to have had him as part of our wonderful family.

  5. Susan in Zurich

    I am so sorry for your loss, Corey. Prayers for you, your family, all who love and will miss your cousin, Chris 🙏

  6. Please accept our condolences over this terrible shock for you and your family. Chris sounds like a delightful person.
    I remember Foster Freeze in Northern California, especially the one nearest our home where occasionally my dad would take me for a soft-serve vanilla ice cream cone dipped in chocolate to form a thin chocolate shell.

  7. My prayers & thoughts are with you Corey & all your wonderful family.
    May God hold you in the Palm of His Hand 🙏

  8. Annafromindiana

    Sending you and your family healing prayers for your loss, dear Corey. Chris must have been wonderful, loving man.

  9. Texas Francophile

    What a beautiful tribute to your everlovin cousin, Chris. What a wonderful man he must have been. peace and comfort for you and your family through your fond memories.

  10. What a family! So sorry for the loss of your dear cousin, Chris. A famous nor cal chef, 61 died of of anaphylactic shock last week as well. My sympathies all around.

  11. Dear Corey,
    My deepest condolences to you and your family. It is never easy to lose a loved one but it always seems especially difficult when they are taken suddenly with no warning.
    I am reminded of this quote attributed to J. M. Barrie, “God gave us memory so that we might have roses in December.”

  12. So sorry for his loss.

  13. Dear Corey…
    I am so very sorry for the loss of your cousin, Chris. My heart goes out to you and your family.
    I am keeping you close in my prayers.
    Love,
    Kathy

  14. What a lovely picture you paint of your family! You are blessed. As you mourn the passing of your cousin Chris, may you draw on your family’s strength and wonderful memories to comfort you.💜

  15. Teddee Grace

    Please accept my condolences, Corey. You and your family members are so very lucky to have such close ties.

  16. jenifer Delson

    Dear Corey,
    I am so sorry about the loss of you cousin, Chris. Your tribute to him via your love for your family is empowering, and the strength of your family is a blessing.
    With care,
    Jenifer

  17. Ella Dyer

    Bonsoir chère Corey,
    While our hearts break over such an untimely and unexpected loss; they are also filled with joy as many of us did not grow up in a similar fashion, yet we aspire to nurture the next generation — near and far — as your forefathers/mothers most obviously do/did.
    Thank you for sharing; it is always emotive and appreciated. Please know that “la petite Simone” and I will light a candle at Holy Trinity Nice as we await the opportunity to meet you too.
    Agape,
    Ella

  18. RebeccaNYC

    Oh Corey, I’m so sorry for this shocking and tragic loss. Sending you much love, always.

  19. So sorry, Corey!
    Cousins and family are so dear.
    Treasure the memories.

  20. Dear Corey, I am so sorry for you and your family, with love and care always.

  21. Jennifer doherty

    Oh Corey, I’m so sorry. He sounds like a wonderful guy. What a terrible loss. How wonderful you have such a supportive family to surround everyone in love.

  22. Annette (Toni) Mason

    Dear Corey, I and Gary, too, are grieving such a loss of a truly great guy. So sudden and shocking.

  23. Sorry to read about Chris. I saw him at Julie’s celebration last fall. Truly thoughtful and wickedly humorous person. Surely will be missed. xo

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